Chen Yekai smiled and said, "I'll just say it casually, don't mind."

Yu Hao nodded. He didn't even have a goal before the college entrance examination. Grandma had breast cancer again. The doctor suggested conservative treatment. In order to make her happy, Yu Hao decided to go to the college entrance examination. The elderly have slow metabolism and the cancer damage is not rapid. If the disease is good, it can last for two years. Yu Hao dared not apply to another school, after all, he could not take her to school with him.

Just nearly half a year ago, in June this year, Yu Hao went to the last exam in the morning, and his grandmother warmed him up milk and put bread. She left after she came back from the exam in the afternoon.

He owed a lot of foreign debts when he was treated before. Yu Hao sold his house and almost paid off his debts. He decided not to go to college, so he first found a job in the city, paid off the remaining debts, and then left his hometown, bid farewell to the past, and started life from scratch, and found the meaning of living.

As a result, he delivered two months of takeaway during the summer vacation and changed his mind. The supervisor was deeply troubled by his education and told him.

"When you go back to college, even if you get a diploma, it is better than finding a job with a high school degree. Studying changes your destiny. If you don't study, you can only repeat your old path wherever you go." Yu Hao explained.

"It's very good." Chen Yekai said, "But I think reading is not all for fate. You can die in the morning and evening. The reading experience is happy, but it is greater than its reward. Don't always strive for 'useful' when doing anything."

Yu Hao didn't quite understand, but no one had ever told him this, so he nodded after hearing it.

Next, he saved up a few months of salary and entered school. He could only owe tuition and accommodation fees first, including 400 yuan in living expenses, telephone charges, transportation fees for tutors, and bedding when they were cold... Many expenses were spent on winter vacations. When he moved into the dormitory, he used to hope to establish a good relationship with his roommate and start a new life. But since the beginning of military training, he gradually discovered that the problems that had troubled him for many years seemed to be always there.

During the military training, his roommate smoked, but he couldn't go with him. After the military training, everyone gathered to invite the instructor to have dinner. Each person had 50 or 50, which was his four-day meal expense, and he didn't go. The roommate asked him to go to the Internet cafe to book an night, and he had to have midnight snacks at 18 a night, and he had to have a midnight snack. Twenty-five or two days of food expenses, but he couldn't go. Others said he had no money to invite him, and he was unwilling to spend his time.

The roommate raised money to get a net, and he went out and wanted to play free mobile games to make life less boring. As a result, he got off the thunder and watched the video, which made him so angry that he had a fight with them because of this.

"My grandma bought the Apple phone for me." Yu Hao cherished this phone very much. When he packed up his grandma's relics, he found the packaged gift he was going to give him after getting into college, which had traces of falling on it.

"I'm going to sell it." Yu Hao said, "use it as food expenses."

Chen Yekai said: "No need. Although it is difficult to make money, it is not that far. Keep it."

Yu Hao finally realized the reality, gave up his plan to integrate into the human society of university, restored his life in high school, sealed himself, and tried not to speak if he could not speak. He studied and hoped to get a scholarship, but he prepared all the certificates for poverty funding, but in the end he didn't give it to him. He had already taken all three schools, so what else could he study? Who else should I pretend to show it?

"Where is a student loan? Didn't you apply for it?" Chen Yekai said.

"No approval yet," Yu Hao replied, "The college said that the materials are not complete and my mother needs to sign, but my mother doesn't know where she went... she can't issue a proof."

Chen Yekai said "yes" and said, "Let's go back and ask."

Later, Yu Hao was isolated in the dormitory, like a gloomy wild bacteria, which always makes people feel uncomfortable and annoying. There are often laughs in the dormitory. When he goes back, he lies on the bed with headphones. His roommate deliberately teases him, just thinking that he can't hear it, but in fact he hears it all.

Before the midterm exam, the roommate wanted to copy his English test paper, but he didn't agree or refuse. Everyone agreed that he agreed. As a result, after the exam started, he did not hand over the note. This behavior eventually aroused public outrage in the dormitory. After the lights were turned off at night, they used the quilt to cover Yu Hao, beat him up, and poured a few glasses of cold water in.

"Fuck!" Zhou Sheng, who was sleeping behind the screen, finally couldn't listen. He sat up, walked to Yu Hao's bedside and asked, "Which one? Are you from 405? I'll make them look good!"

Chen Yekai never expected that there was someone behind the screen eavesdropping and said angrily: "Sit down for me!"

Chen Yekai looked gentle and polite, and his words just now were indisputable. Zhou Sheng had to give him face and had to sit aside.

Fu Liqun smiled and said, "Red-haired has practiced boxing, and one of them can beat them all the time. Last time we saw a few people pulling and pulling at a girl outside, and he stepped forward and punched him, and the other party lay down."

"Then you go to the fight? Anyway, if someone is injured, it is hard for others to ask you to compensate. I will definitely rely on him. Will you go?" Chen Yekai said to Zhou Sheng.

Zhou Sheng thought it was true, no one dared to provoke him, so he would definitely let Yu Hao take the blame again.

Yu Hao looked at them and felt a little moved for some reason. If he had been roommates when he entered the college, it might have been much better. But maybe after getting along for a long time, they would have hated themselves.

That night, he remembered very clearly that he had covered his head with his head in half. After waking up, he finally knew what was going on. They beat themselves up for a long time, and when they finally dispersed, Yu Hao did not lift the quilt, but curled up in the quilt, and tears couldn't stop flowing out.

"Let them be careful." Zhou Sheng said to Chen Yekai.

Chen Yekai said: "You are just to be careful. If anyone in their dormitory has his legs broken, I will look for you. You are the number one suspect."

Zhou Sheng: "…"

Yu Hao couldn't help laughing and said, "No, thank you. I'm all ready."

Zhou Sheng asked him: "If you are wrongly accused of stealing things, you must have put a lot of effort into your dormitory and didn't run away. How can you be like this in life? Are you not afraid of being struck by lightning?"

Yu Hao said: "It's not their fault that they hate me. Sometimes, I actually hate myself quite a bit."

Everyone: "..."

Later, Fu Liqun introduced him to the work of working part-time. When Yuan was seeing him drinking tap water next to the court, Yu Hao knew it himself, and then he stopped playing basketball again. The tutor paid him eighty at a time and went there four times a month. He cherished this opportunity very much.

The student did not cooperate very much at the beginning, and Yu Hao did not scold her, but only told the truth in front of the parents. After seven classes, the primary school student might have wanted to drive him away, so he put the watch in his bag. He didn't understand at first, but found that there was an extra watch in his bag. Because of the past, he was very vigilant.

He thought it was his roommate who stuffed his bag, so he took out the watch and put it on the table without saying a word. As a result, everyone noticed the watch and said nothing.

Yu Hao became more and more confused. He was about to sell his mobile phone, so he brought the watch and asked the old-fashioned goods how much the watch cost. After learning the price, he was shocked and was about to post a notice outside the study room. The parents of the students called the police.

Every time he went to the other party's house, he would go directly into the study room. Although he thought the family was rich, he never expected that the watch came from here. Until the police came, he always thought that he had collected things in the study room and collected them wrongly, or the row of people behind him put the watch on the table and accidentally dropped it in his bag.

"Did you tell Teacher Xue these words?" Chen Yekai asked.

"Some said, some didn't." Yu Hao said tiredly, "He doesn't believe me."

Chen Yekai said: "Teacher Xue is a good teacher, why do you say that?"

"His eyes were exactly the same as my junior high school class teacher." Yu Hao replied, "Once the teacher caught me smoking. I didn't smoke. I was playing with the table while eating, and the smoke smelled by the next table. The teacher decided that it was me. They were biased against me, and it would be useless to explain too much."

"I won't live anymore if I don't." Zhou Sheng sighed, "It's so fucking disgusting to be alive."

Everyone: "..."

"Then you have not had a single friend since you were a child?" Chen Yekai ignored Zhou Sheng and said to Yu Hao.

Chen Yekai's words were just to lay the groundwork for the next sentence, and after saying it, he waited for Yu Hao's reaction. Yu Hao thought quietly for a while, just wanted to shake his head and tell him that when he reached this day, he was half a difficult time and half a due to his personality. But just when he wanted to say "no", he suddenly remembered the general in his dream.

"There are still some." Yu Hao said, "I decided to live well."

Chen Yekai thought to himself why you didn’t play according to common sense, but he still smiled and said, “I am also your friend.”

"So too." Fu Liqun said with a smile, "Some things, don't be too stubborn, just pass."

Zhou Sheng said: "I heard what you said, and I remembered a movie called "This Killer Is Not Cold" with a classic line..."

Chen Yekai couldn't listen anymore and interrupted: "I've finished the infusion, let's go, how do you feel?"

Yu Hao was much better, and the nurse came over to remove the injections for him. Chen Yekai planned to take them to hot pot, so the saying goes, "Everyone celebrates your new life together."

The lunch meal Yu Hao had almost digested. He felt a little uncomfortable, and he felt a little bit uncomfortable, and it was also a sense of resistance to the relationship between "friends". It seemed that after knowing Chen Yekai, Fu Liqun and even Zhou Sheng for a long time, he would gradually hate himself.

As long as all relationships don’t start, they won’t end, and there will be no expectations and no disappointment. From this perspective, Yu Hao would rather have friends he just met eat hot pot and let him walk back slowly by himself. But Zhou Sheng said nothing and dragged him over.

Chen Yekai had just ordered a few bites of the dishes and received a call from the college, so he had to buy the order and leave early; Fu Liqun packed two fried rice and took him back to the college so that he would not know the way when it was dark. Yu Hao and Zhou Sheng were left with the dishes for four people.

Zhou Sheng held a cigarette in his mouth, added a bottle of beer and drank it himself, and kept picking up food for Yu Hao, saying, "If you go back to the dormitory, just say, I will protect you, whoever bullies you, let him wait."

Yu Hao didn't know how to get along with this young college student in society, so he had to nod his head in a restrained manner.

Zhou Sheng said again: "How much do you guess Chen Yekai's scarf cost?"

Yu Hao: "How much does it cost?"

Zhou Sheng said: "It's enough to pay our tuition for the whole year."

Yu Hao: "..."

Zhou Sheng said, "Forget it, eat more." It was not until the two of them barely finished all the dishes and Yu Hao was almost vomiting, so Zhou Sheng took him downstairs to the dormitory and asked him to go back.

"Give me the lighter." Zhou Sheng took Yu Hao's lighter and said, "It's confiscated, let's go back, see you tomorrow."

The autumn wind blew, and the whole city of Ying City cooled overnight. Yu Hao was so cold that he shivered. When he returned to the dormitory, all his roommates went out to surf the Internet all night. He bowed and dragged out the woven bag under the bed, which contained all his belongings.

The house was sold, and there were a few photo frames containing photos, including photos of grandma and him, as well as those of old plastic ones. When he graduated from high school, he accompanied his grandma to check in the hospital, but was not in the photo.

Yu Hao put away the photos and wanted to find a down vest to wear tomorrow, but found a wooden box pressing under the woven bag. When he opened the box, Yu Hao's hands shook slightly.

There is a chess piece inside.

Soldiers, cannons, chariots, soldiers, horses...

He remembered when he was a child, the day when his father taught him to play chess, and taught him to recognize which soldier and which one was handsome. He liked the red side, so they turned into a crimson flag flying under the Great Wall, which was as powerful as a tide and irresistible.

He remembered that after his father died, he always won when his grandmother played chess with him, and his grandmother played chess, and in his memory he never won.

"A hundred battles are won!" When he was a child, he grabbed his grandma's army, and grandma smiled and put on the chessboard and started again.

Yu Hao put away his chess pieces and lay on the bed. He fell asleep in this empty darkness.

"Good evening."

He told himself that he should live a good life tomorrow, just like what the general said in a dream that regains his new life. Yu Hao always believes that there is something to think about the day and dreams at night. When the dream appears, it happens to be the last moment in his life. Such a dream may mean that deep in his heart, he still has some expectations of working hard to survive.

"Come back?" said the general's voice.

Yu Hao suddenly woke up, screamed, sat up from the floor, and the general knelt on one knee and guarded his bedside like a loyal guardian.

"Why...why are you again?" Yu Hao was shocked.

When he had a dream for the first time, Yu Hao thought it was a natural phenomenon, but now he has entered the dream for the second time and met him again.

The general sat cross-legged on the ground, holding his arms, and his actions seemed a little clumsy due to the friction of his armor.

"After you light up the beacon, it will be safe for the time being." The general said seriously, "but if you want to find yourself, you have to continue working hard."

"No, no." Yu Hao said in disbelief, "Wait, this... is this true?"

He turned to look at the surrounding environment and was in a private house with wooden walls and wooden cabinets and floor pavement.

"This is your dream." The general said.

"I know this is my dream..." Yu Hao said a little confused, "But why does this dream look like a TV series?"

"It's strange?" said the general. "This is a fixed manifestation of your world of consciousness. Get up and go out and have a look?"

The general reached out to Yu Hao, pulled him up, and signaled him to push the door. Yu Hao pushed open the door of the house. After the dazzling light disappeared, there were vast mountains, hills and fertile fields, and cattle and sheep, wandering between the mountains and fields. The sky was dark, but it was much brighter than the high walls of the Great Wall.
To be continued...