It seemed as if I was thinking fiercely, and the confinement and james were not speaking out anymore. They seemed to be waiting for my answer.

Wait for me to make a decision.

Can I... kill someone?

I couldn't stand the cruel scene of Xu Feng's friendly and talkative smile, and then the cruel scene where I wanted to kill him with a weapon, cut his face, cut his throat, or inserted a knife into his heart.

I can't do it.

I'm not a murderer.

I am not Zhang Muyi, nor Wang Bin.

I can't kill people for a simple guess.

Finally, I let go of my clenched fists.

Relieved.

"Forget it, I think they are just ordinary students who have nothing to do with... Moreover, I am not a murderer. Confinement, what do you think of me?" I looked at Confinement with some reproach, but found that Confinement was looking at me with a very serious look.

"But, brother." Yuezi's delicate eyebrows frowned slightly toward her eyebrows. "If God Game is real, other teams have guided their own world, and then they come to us. What should we do when that day?"

At that moment, I felt that I could clearly hear my heartbeat.

I was silent, looked at the confinement period, looked at the james again, and finally, I took a deep breath and said:

"If the guess that the Yalang Gang you mentioned in Confinement is correct, then other teams dare to attack us and come to destroy our world and books. Then when we die and the world is destroyed, the author who created them will also die. In that case, won’t those teams die together? So don’t you think so much, no matter what, we are safe. As long as the people in other teams know that they are fictional people, they will not dare to destroy this world. Although our world is ordinary, it is well protected."

When I said this, even I was happy for my own analysis. If it weren't for the confinement period asking to kill others, I wouldn't even think of this. In this way, our situation would be safer than we thought. What else should I worry about?

One of the heaviest dark clouds that have been suppressing in my heart finally dissipated, and I suddenly realized that I had a long-lost comfort. For a moment, I even felt like I had returned to my ordinary life and lived an ordinary life, just like before.

"Well... it seems like that, it's like that." Yuezi touched her smooth and delicate chin, then raised her head and said, "Then there is only one last question left. That is who the member named Blue Moon is, what does the documentary story he wrote mean? Will it have any connotation? Alas, after thinking about it, my head is almost getting bigger." Yuezi shook her hair fiercely, as if it was covered with dandruff.

"Yes, I don't understand either." James spoke cautiously. "This Blue Moon is definitely not the Blue Moon Master I know. It should be just a member of the same name. But I think the story he wrote is really interesting."

"It's very interesting? How do you say this?" I was a little puzzled. "From what they said, isn't Blue Moon just a diary?"

"No, I'm not talking about content, I'm talking about his writing structure." James said, "Think about it, if the author is compared to God's words, isn't it very similar? The author created the world in his story, and God also created the real world. Or in other words, God is the designer and the creator. And if the story structure of the Blue Moon, then the Blue Moon created God in his story, and then used the God in the story to create a new world,

Then continue to create God in that world, and then let the new God continue to create the world... until there is no end and endless cycle. In this way, did the Blue Moon create countless Gods? Then he is even greater than God. It can even be said that... it is an existence beyond God. God created the world, and he created God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God's God... Countless Gods. Just a little thought makes people feel terrible, doesn't it?"

James's crazy thought made me feel a little surprised. I laughed, patted his shoulder, and said:

"You've been thinking too much, a little too much. I didn't expect that you would have such a whimsical idea, james."

But I found that James' face was still not calm. He looked at me with a calm look that I had hardly seen before and said:

"But, Mr. Yang, have you seen God several times?"

"I... have seen God?"

"Yes, a while ago, didn't you see Jesus' face often?" James said seriously.

When my heart was mentioned by James, my heart suddenly became high, and the memories that were almost forgotten by me suddenly came back like a water pump.

Indeed, a while ago, I really saw Jesus' face several times, either on the walls burned by fire, or on the glass washed by rain. I saw Jesus' avatar more than once. At that time, I thought it was just the psychological effect of my too much psychological pressure... But now when James said this, I suddenly felt a creepy feeling.

It was like, above my head, there was a pair of eyes staring at me. Even my scalp was a little numb. This idea was too crazy and scary.

"It may also be a problem of psychological pressure. It's hard to say such things. It's useless to think too much, so let's put it aside for now." Although James' guess slightly subverted my concept, if you think about it carefully, this kind of random imagination that will never come to a result by thinking is useless. I had to stop this long conversation. I should also rest when it's time to rest. Because we spent too much time in school, we didn't have time to have dinner. Because we had already passed dinner time, I pulled Xueqi, who was in the hotel with Fresey, and went for a late-night snack together.

Xueqi kept asking where we went. She said she thought something happened to us, but she was very worried. Xueqi also saw that I was in a better mood, so even her emotions became much more lively.

I had no choice but to comfort Xueqi and said that I had met some business and went to meet a few business people. Yuezi and James were my translators. Now the business has been almost done and it is fun. Although Xueqi knew that I had concealed it, her emotional frankness made her let go of her worries, especially the three of us were stern in the morning and whispered from time to time, which made Xueqi very worried. Now we all had a casual expression, and she naturally relaxed the yin energy in her heart.

I looked at the beautiful white curve lying in the quilt and couldn't help but smile, and then went to the bathroom to take a shower. When I came out, I found Xueqi was asleep and the TV was still on. I couldn't help but feel a little happy. Maybe it was because I was tired after walking around the street for a day. When I turned off the TV and used a hairdryer to dry my hair, Xueqi was woken up by me. She turned over, rubbed her dark eyes and said:

"Ahhh, it's so noisy, why are it so noisy?"

When I heard Xue Qi's lazy voice, my heart suddenly itched. I specially put itchy to Xue Qi's ears, and then blew her ears with a hot hair dryer. She was so scared that she opened her eyes immediately, covered her ears and curled up and moved away.

"Well...why, I feel so uncomfortable." Xueqi frowned and looked at me angrily, because she just woke up, her face was red, as cute as the red plateau.

I smiled and said, "There are too many earwaxes in my ears, I'll give you some advice."

Xueqi was furious when she heard my inappropriate words and threw a pillow over: "Ah, disgusting! Dad, you have so many earwaxes."

I joked:

"Then you dig it for dad, come on, come on." As I said that, I also pointed to my ears on purpose, "Dad feels that his ears are getting worse and worse recently, and he hears the sounds rumble, and I don't know much."

"Ah! Then that's it, idiot idiot! Can you hear it?"

Xueqi deliberately held her hand into a trumpet and shouted into my ear.

"I can't hear, I can't hear. What did you say?"

I deliberately pretended to be unaware of it.

"I'm talking about idiots and idiots! Can you hear it?!" Xueqi raised her voice and shouted loudly into my ears, shaking my ears so loudly.

"I can't hear or hear." I still pretended, but I couldn't help but smiled tilted when I opened my mouth.

Xueqi sat on the bed with her legs bent, looking at me with a look of a fool, and spread her hands at me and said:

"Give it."

"What are you bringing?" I asked, looking at Xueqi's little hands spread out.

"Ear-clearing spoon! Can you hear it? Pretend to be deaf and dumb, a big idiot!" As he said that, Xueqi actually took out the ear-clearing spoon from the keychain I hung on the belt buckle on the backrest of the sofa, picked up the pillow on the ground and jumped onto the bed, patted the snow-white pillow that was flattened, and said:

"Then lie down quickly, I'll dig it for you, right?"

I didn't expect Xueqi to be really willing to clean my ears. I suddenly felt an indescribable emotion surging in my heart. The emotion came so suddenly that it had passed away without even grasping it myself.

I remember that when Xueqi was young, she really often cleaned my ear spoon. Of course, I must have cleaned her ear spoon much more times. But since Xueqi grew up, this kind of thing has not happened, and it is impossible for her to happen again. Unexpectedly, Xueqi now proposed to dig my ears again.

"Oh, I'm so obedient today. Then I'll do it." Seeing Xueqi's well-behaved look, I felt a little uncomfortable. I lay on the bed excitedly. Xueqi knelt on the bed, and I leaned on her thighs. Because I had just taken a shower, Xueqi's body was still smelling of a shower gel, which smelled very nice. I leaned on her smooth and smooth thighs, and felt like I was leaning on an elastic leather pillow, extremely comfortable.

My ears were against Xueqi's smooth and round thighs. I could also feel Xueqi's warm body temperature. The temperature was transmitted from her snow-white skin to the root of my ears. I felt that my ears were about to melt and almost stuck to her thighs.

"Don't move around." Xueqi pulled my ears with one hand, and in the other hand, she really helped me pick up my earwax with an ear-cleaning spoon.

I don’t know if it was because my face was pressed against her thighs, but I felt that the temperature of Xueqi’s legs was also rising. Maybe she was still a little shy.

But she was really careful, just like she was threading needles and threads, carefully scooping me with my ear spoon bit by bit.

At that moment, I was pillowing Xueqi's soft and elastic thighs, and a strong and indescribable sense of happiness was brewing in my heart.

For a man who is a father, the happiest thing in his life is that his daughter can clean his ears.

"Qiqi, you are a little weird today. Why are you willing to dig your ears for your father?" I asked with Xueqi's thighs on my pillow and couldn't help but tilt my eyes upwards.

"Stop moving around, I'll dig it right away... I won't dig it for you if I move it again." Xueqi said a little angrily.

I hurriedly closed my mouth obediently and silently felt the subtle feeling of the ear-clearing spoon in Xueqi's hand rubbing gently in my ear canal.

I could even feel the heat that Xueqi exhaled gently blowing on my neck. The comfortable feeling was like a hypnotic spring breeze, making people want to sleep.

After a long time, I almost closed my eyes and fell asleep. Xueqi, who had been silent, suddenly opened her mouth with a gentle voice.

"I always feel like you are in a bad mood recently, Dad..." Xueqi said softly, "I wonder if my relationship is like this... But I always feel like there is something else. I always feel like you are doing very dangerous things... but I just don't tell me. Every day I see Dad, Dad, and Confinement Sister, all the faces are frowning."

When my ears heard Xueqi's voice, my ears couldn't help but move. This is also my habit. When my emotions change, my ears will always tremble unconsciously.

"Qiqi..."

"But when you come back tonight, Dad, I feel that your mood has improved a lot suddenly. It seems like a stone in your heart hit the ground, and you smile on your face, and you will play with me, just like before." Xueqi said slowly, "Dad, you are still the same as before... It's great."

Xueqi's words were like a gauze, passing by me in my heart. It was so inadvertent, but it shocked me again.

All along, I always feel that among the women I know, perhaps the smartest one is the smartest one, because she can always say what she should say when she should speak and not say when she should not say. She can always help me, like a right-hand man, and even think of things that I can never think of or can’t figure out. And what about Xueqi? She is like a little princess in a greenhouse, knowing nothing, and everything is hidden.

But at this moment, I suddenly felt that I was wrong. Xueqi has never been stupid or ignorant. In fact, she knows everything, but she is one step closer than confinement. Whether it is time to speak or not, she doesn't say anything, so I thought she doesn't know anything, like an innocent baby.

But how could she really not know? Xueqi had actually realized a lot of things, but just like when she was a child, she never said it, but would just silently hold it in her heart.

Over the years, this has become a unique lifestyle for Xueqi.

When she was young, in order not to let the world know that I had a daughter like her, whenever a stranger or relative came to my house, I would let her hide on the second floor and not let others discover it. Just as she never existed.

Xueqi also knew that I didn't want her to be known to the world, so she had always obeyed me and had never been discovered by outsiders. Year by year, time by time, the same agreement between me and her conditioned reflexes had been integrated into Xueqi's thinking habits and became her way of protecting herself. She also began to get used to keeping silent about things she didn't know and things she shouldn't ask, because those things are dangerous and only I am safe. As long as I listen to me and don't ask so much, I will naturally take good care of her in the end, so she is also used to ignorance. But deep down in her heart, she will actually have sensitive insight into many things.

I did not respond to Xueqi's words, but I just pillowed on Xueqi's soft thighs, but a deep layer of sadness appeared in my heart.

How great would it be if time could stay at this moment forever.

I know, I love Xueqi.

This kind of love is unconditional love. It is deeply integrated into my bones and is a part of my life. Without it, I will become less like me.

But I had no choice but to give up.

This is my destined ending.

Xueqi, after all, does not belong to me.

"Qiqi." I said softly.

"Hmm?" Xueqi put down the hand that was pulling my ears and made a sound with her nose.

"Call Ma Bailong tomorrow," I said after swallowing my saliva, "Actually, he has helped us a lot during this period, and he is familiar with this place. He can also take us to more fun places when he comes. You can also discuss studying in the United States."
To be continued...